I feel like I am in the movie Groundhog Day. Everyday I pretty much do the same thing...which is nothing. I need to move on with my life. I've gained 15 pounds from freaking depression and I feel so disgusting. I started my self study course and I haven't really been doing any of the work. I'm not able to keep to a routine and my nights and days are mixed up. I'm really hating myself right now.
Tomorrow I go for counselling, this is my 3rd time going. She is really nice, but I don't like talking about myself so I usually talk about random things and I feel like I am not getting anywhere. I wonder what she will want me to talk about.
I start volunteering at the hospital on the 3rd of April at 8am. I usually fall asleep at 5am and get up at 11am so I am hopefully not going to be a zombie on my first day or extremely grumpy. I will have to get up at 6:30am in order to be there on time :(
Anyways I am off to make supper.